Tuesday, July 3, 2012


To my dear readers,

The building blocks of my life have fallen, been rearranged, deconstructed, and reconstructed. Right now, dear readers, I’m on a journey of self-reflection. I’m thankful for all of those people that have stuck it out with me for so long. I have learned a lot from all of you and I hope that some of you have maybe learned something from me, or at the very least, have been entertained by some of my stories.

This blog was a part of me.


I have moved on with my writing. I still write every day and have realized that as of today, I want to bid farewell to this blog and start something fresh and new. I’m very proud of this blog, because it was there when I needed something to reflect on, when I needed help with a certain topic or issue, or when I needed to find some sort of outlet to express myself. However, it became less and less fun and to be honest, I lost my passion for writing and had a dry spell for a few months, because of some of the things that happened in my life, like the separation of certain best friends, the death of my sister, and my encounters with depression due to several aspects of my life falling apart. However, I’m trying my best this summer to get over a lot and spending this time for self-reflection. I’m losing some weight because I’ve gained 30lbs, since a few months ago and my life wasn’t going in the direction that I wanted it to go. Now, I’m taking this bull named Life, by the horns, and riding it toward a direction that I want to.

I’m exploring religion a lot more, especially since the death of Francesca. I’m looking into Taoism a lot, a little bit of Buddhism, and am planning on reading the Bible straight through. I’m not hoping to finish any of these studies by the summer, because I hope to remain a student of life forever, which is why I named this the Student Writer’s Mind.

Besides religion, spoken word poetry has become a new venue for me to express things to people without any worry of people not understanding.  This idea that I can express everything to an audience and that there will always be someone snapping or humming to my words, knowing what I’ve been through has always been reassuring to me. You can always search my name on Youtube. All you have to type in the search bar is: Uncultivated Rabbits Stitch. I hope to hear comments from you, whenever I can.

As for this blog, I don’t know if I’ll come back to it or not. Time will tell. As for now, I need to do some traveling and adventuring in familiar places and some places unknown. I will be at the crossroads of Anywhere, Somewhere, Nowhere, and Life. I ask only for your support and your constant kindness, which you have always given me and that I’m thankful for. I care for all of you and all your stories, would love to read them, and hear all your inspiring words and more. If you ever want to reach me, my email is vyousefi@uci.edu. Thank you for always being there. 

Write on.

Vatche "Stitch" Yousefian

Saturday, January 21, 2012

Dear God and Francesca: A Spoken Word

This piece explains one of the biggest things to happen to my life in the past few months. Her name was Francesca Garcia. She was my best friend and my "little sister." Everyone was blessed to know her. Please, watch and remember.

(Facebook photos and also the video taken belong to their original owners.)

Saturday, January 14, 2012

The Catch Up

The first week of school went by as fast as you can say, “Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious.” Slowly and gruelingly, work has become a repetitive thing and I don’t know how much longer I can stand people being amazed by the bursting boba.

“Oh my god, are those fish eggs?”

“Excuse me, what are those?”

“Oh, look its caviar.”

Over the summer it was the sweet, red beans that surprised people. I’m slowly losing my sanity. The only people that used to keep me entertained were my co-workers, but now they’ve all moved on or quit. I’m moving up the ladder and becoming a shift leader soon, but I have to show that I’m worth it. It has been difficult for me to maintain a job at night, while being in school in the morning and afternoon.


I’m still trying to get into one of my classes. Due to recent budget cuts, there are over 450 students in a 399 person lecture hall. It’s a shame to see a good school like a University of California have to go through budget cuts. I told the teacher that I will sit in, write notes and take my exam on the floor if it means getting into this classroom. The teacher is funny and always makes sure that his students are paying attention in his class. It’s worth it, even if I have to sit on the floor.

I’m also taking my first creative writing class for the quarter. So far, I’m just reading a few short stories and a book on writing, but near the middle of the quarter is when the creative writing part starts. I’m excited!

Besides that, the other interesting class I’m attending is poetry. Truth be told, I never liked poetry when I wanted to venture into a writing career. I liked characters, stories, adventures, etc. Poetry was too short for my attention span and was just an ounce of feeling compared to the immense connection to the characters that I read about. However, since Rabbits, I’ve learned that poetry is more than any of that. It is life embodied. I told my poetry discussion leader that I was involved with Rabbits and spoken word poetry, which led us to a discussion of his outreach project. He is having this project where he is outreaching to high schools, mostly junior high school students, and holds workshops for them. I thought it was interesting and he said that he didn’t have much experience with spoken word, so he wanted to recruit me if I wasn’t too busy. I told him to sign me up at the end of class. Despite my busy schedule, I want to show poetry to these little kids at an earlier age than when I discovered its true meaning.

As for my fraternity, we’ve been running events all throughout RUSH week. For those of you know who don’t know the fraternity jargon, RUSH week is when a fraternity holds a bunch of events that invite people who might be interested in the fraternity for free, so they can interact with all our members and decide if they want to pledge. We had a big number of sign-ups, but we only ended up taking a group of nine. Nine. I feel like that number is a strong group for the new family that’s going to be born. They will be strong, I can feel it.

Here are some out of the ordinary things that I did this week that weren’t part of my schedule: sent a package to Japan, stayed up finishing an application for RA with my best friend/roommate, partied hard, started an inspiration wall in my room, finished a journal, performed for Uncultivated Rabbits’ First Open Mic of 2012 and Delta Sigma's Culture Cafe, and went to Santa Ana and Pomona.

I’ve also started a side-project of mine that is sort of like journaling, because of a quote that I found recently.

“Buy a blank notebook. Draw a huge heart on the cover. Don’t write anything negative in here. If you need another outlet, make a separate notebook. This one is all about love, personal growth, and getting back up. Fill it with beautiful images, reaffirming thoughts, and quotes. Write in it every day, and each day writing one thing you’re grateful for in your life.” ~ Kim: Advice from a Mermaid in a Manhole

So, I did just that. I’m writing down all the things I’m grateful for and I might share a few here on this blog when I get the chance. I’m also going to try and take some pictures, when I can of my life, because I want to keep some memories here and show you some of the things a student writer such as myself lives. Beautiful, ugly, mundane, special, exciting, and dull. All will be posted.

Lastly, I know that I haven’t been posting things this past week, but it’s been a hell of a juggle. However, I still love all of you readers, because you’re my friends and not only followers. I open up to you and I want to hear how you are all doing, as well. I would love a comment or two about how your weeks are all going.

(All photos came from my facebook and belong to their respective photographers.)


Monday, January 2, 2012

Monsters Like Us: Spoken Word

Here's a performance I did at an Uncultivated Rabbits open-mic back in October for Halloween. Hope you guys all enjoy! Let me know if I can work on anything! :D

Youtube URL: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uiCQBE8twCE

Saturday, December 31, 2011

Reflections on 2011 and New Year Resolutions: 2012

Neil Gaiman posts this every new year, so I will continue with that tradition as well, since I posted it exactly last year too! Here's what he has to say, "May your coming year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope you read some fine books and kiss someone who thinks you're wonderful, and don't forget to make some art -- write or draw or build or sing or live as only you can. And I hope, somewhere in the next year, you surprise yourself." 

I don't even remember how this year started, but I'm remembering how this one is ending because as I said in a few posts a lot has happened in the last few months of 2011. It is taking me great courage to talk to you in these next few weeks, but I know that if I write out my feelings, my thoughts, and everything else (good or bad), it will not only help you understand but also help me. 

So, with this new year, I have some new and old resolutions. I followed a few of my resolutions last year, but toward the middle had lost track of them, so I'm deciding to not only type them out here, but I am going to physically write them out and post them in my room. Here they are:

1. Stay connected. Vague, but it holds a lot of meaning to me. I want to stay connected with those I have lost connections with. I know those connections with my friends, family, and even dreams are still there. So, I have to grab hold of those ropes and hold them tight. I'm going to try my best this time around. Usually, I get sidetracked or hit with a mountain of chaos, but this time I'm reminding myself everyday why I have the people around me. It's because I love them and they love me. 

2. Write more, read more, be more. Not necessarily in that order. I want to always surpass my expectations. This year I did read a lot, but I know that I can always fit time in my schedule to read more books. I have a problem with buying a lot of books and still have plenty to read on my bookshelf. But some people don't understand that I like to digest what I read and that there is a time and place for every book in my life. When I need inspiration, I turn to Gaiman. When I need an adventure, I turn to manga or comics. When I need a thrill, I walk on over to Stephen King's universe. As for writing, I've been really working on my poetry and it has open my eyes to a different way of looking and feeling to the world, but I want to return to the stories and characters that I once loved. As for being more, I want to always shoot to be the best at what I do, so I'm going to try and be actively involved in something--I don't know what yet--but something! Neil Gaiman told me to surprise myself in the future, so that's what I'm going to do!

3. Stay healthy. I'm not going to lie to you, dear readers, but I have gained some weight over the last months. Not too much though! I gained just a few pounds over the winter break because I didn't want to workout too much and needed some relaxation. However, it's back on the treadmill and bike for me! Boy, the gyms are going to be packed because this resolution tends to be a popular one among people here in California!

4. I've learned to be independent over this year, but I believe that's really impossible to be independent. We need everyone to do something. To get a job, we need someone to hire us. To eat, we need someone to serve us or we need someone to buy from. So, in my mind, there is no such thing as independence, because we are social creatures and can't afford to or can't be alone. 

5. Learn. This is called the Student Writer's Mind, because one will always be a student. Even though I'm a student now, we are all still students, regardless of a classroom or not. We learn things everyday. I want to be able to continue on learning new things and my friends, family, and anyone new will help me along the way. 

If you have any New Year Resolutions that you want to share, I would love to hear them.  I wish you, dear readers, the best year possible as always! :3

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

A Mental Snack (62): Tragedy

Share your thoughts, share your stories...

"Does it break my heart, of course, every moment of every day, into more pieces than my heart was made of, I never thought about things at all, everything changed, the distance that wedged itself between me and my happiness wasn't the world, it wasn't the bombs and burning buildings, it was me, my thinking, the cancer of never letting go, is ignorance bliss, I don't know, but it's so painful to think, and tell me, what did thinking ever do for me, to what great place did thinking ever bring me? ~ Jonathan Safran Foer, Extermely Loud and Incredibly Close

Have you ever been struck by a tragedy? How did you react and what happened? How are you dealing with it today?

Monday, December 26, 2011

Christmas Time

In observation of Christmas, the blog will resume back on Wednesday with a Mental Snack. Thank you! :3 So, Merry Christmas to you all and I hope you all are having fun with your family and friends!