Saturday, December 31, 2011

Reflections on 2011 and New Year Resolutions: 2012

Neil Gaiman posts this every new year, so I will continue with that tradition as well, since I posted it exactly last year too! Here's what he has to say, "May your coming year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope you read some fine books and kiss someone who thinks you're wonderful, and don't forget to make some art -- write or draw or build or sing or live as only you can. And I hope, somewhere in the next year, you surprise yourself." 

I don't even remember how this year started, but I'm remembering how this one is ending because as I said in a few posts a lot has happened in the last few months of 2011. It is taking me great courage to talk to you in these next few weeks, but I know that if I write out my feelings, my thoughts, and everything else (good or bad), it will not only help you understand but also help me. 

So, with this new year, I have some new and old resolutions. I followed a few of my resolutions last year, but toward the middle had lost track of them, so I'm deciding to not only type them out here, but I am going to physically write them out and post them in my room. Here they are:

1. Stay connected. Vague, but it holds a lot of meaning to me. I want to stay connected with those I have lost connections with. I know those connections with my friends, family, and even dreams are still there. So, I have to grab hold of those ropes and hold them tight. I'm going to try my best this time around. Usually, I get sidetracked or hit with a mountain of chaos, but this time I'm reminding myself everyday why I have the people around me. It's because I love them and they love me. 

2. Write more, read more, be more. Not necessarily in that order. I want to always surpass my expectations. This year I did read a lot, but I know that I can always fit time in my schedule to read more books. I have a problem with buying a lot of books and still have plenty to read on my bookshelf. But some people don't understand that I like to digest what I read and that there is a time and place for every book in my life. When I need inspiration, I turn to Gaiman. When I need an adventure, I turn to manga or comics. When I need a thrill, I walk on over to Stephen King's universe. As for writing, I've been really working on my poetry and it has open my eyes to a different way of looking and feeling to the world, but I want to return to the stories and characters that I once loved. As for being more, I want to always shoot to be the best at what I do, so I'm going to try and be actively involved in something--I don't know what yet--but something! Neil Gaiman told me to surprise myself in the future, so that's what I'm going to do!

3. Stay healthy. I'm not going to lie to you, dear readers, but I have gained some weight over the last months. Not too much though! I gained just a few pounds over the winter break because I didn't want to workout too much and needed some relaxation. However, it's back on the treadmill and bike for me! Boy, the gyms are going to be packed because this resolution tends to be a popular one among people here in California!

4. I've learned to be independent over this year, but I believe that's really impossible to be independent. We need everyone to do something. To get a job, we need someone to hire us. To eat, we need someone to serve us or we need someone to buy from. So, in my mind, there is no such thing as independence, because we are social creatures and can't afford to or can't be alone. 

5. Learn. This is called the Student Writer's Mind, because one will always be a student. Even though I'm a student now, we are all still students, regardless of a classroom or not. We learn things everyday. I want to be able to continue on learning new things and my friends, family, and anyone new will help me along the way. 

If you have any New Year Resolutions that you want to share, I would love to hear them.  I wish you, dear readers, the best year possible as always! :3

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

A Mental Snack (62): Tragedy

Share your thoughts, share your stories...

"Does it break my heart, of course, every moment of every day, into more pieces than my heart was made of, I never thought about things at all, everything changed, the distance that wedged itself between me and my happiness wasn't the world, it wasn't the bombs and burning buildings, it was me, my thinking, the cancer of never letting go, is ignorance bliss, I don't know, but it's so painful to think, and tell me, what did thinking ever do for me, to what great place did thinking ever bring me? ~ Jonathan Safran Foer, Extermely Loud and Incredibly Close

Have you ever been struck by a tragedy? How did you react and what happened? How are you dealing with it today?

Monday, December 26, 2011

Christmas Time

In observation of Christmas, the blog will resume back on Wednesday with a Mental Snack. Thank you! :3 So, Merry Christmas to you all and I hope you all are having fun with your family and friends!

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

A Mental Snack (61)

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"With writing, we have second chances." ~ Jonathan Safran Foer, Everything Is Illuminated

What does writing mean to you? What do you think Foer means by writing gives us second chances? 

Monday, December 19, 2011

Stitching the Pieces

Dreams flourish. Dreams grow. Dreams happen. Dreams die.

Everyone knows what a dream is, but can’t explain it. Dreams sound like plants. Dreams can be compared to balloons holding our thoughts and waiting to explode. Dreams sound human. Dreams are human and are the closest thing to being human. They are things that makes us, us.

I have dreams just like you. That’s why this blog was created. That’s why this is being written. I have suffered many tragedies in my life since I was born and many these past few months, but who hasn’t. What makes my story different? What makes me so different or so special? These endless questions have always bothered me to the point of sleepless nights and waking nightmares.

I had the dream to be a writer. I still do. But, I haven’t written anything in a while and I’m being honest. You, dear reader, probably noticed that these posts became less and less frequent. I began looking at writing less as fun and more as a task. I rushed into the chaos of college life dealing with problems in school, family, friends, finances, etc. And writing used to be my escape from my problems, but back then I viewed it just as another thing added to the list and it was taking too much of my time.

I’m trying to stitch everything back together in my life, but it is difficult when there are this many broken pieces, in so many different places. It feels like I’m trying to put back together three different puzzles that are all in the same pile. I’ve changed and have gained more responsibilities also, but that won’t deter me away this time. There are more people in my life, more that have distanced themselves, and I will tell you about them. The real and fictional.

Now, where did my writing go?

Did my dreams of becoming a writer die? Did my dreams get lost among all the crap being thrown at me? Are they gone forever?


I’m writing again. I’m writing this.

But the most important thing is: I’m trying again. Looking for “it” again. Please bare with me. You’ve been here for a while and the fact that you’re reading this brings me great joy. I’m going to start writing again. Let me to tell you my story and the story of a few others, because I’ve left you in the dark for some time and I’m sorry for that. I’ve brought a new light and an old dream. Lend me your ears.

I have to tell you about this blank year on the blog and all that’s gone on. Welcome to the Student Writer’s Mind, again.