Tuesday, July 3, 2012

Farewell


To my dear readers,

The building blocks of my life have fallen, been rearranged, deconstructed, and reconstructed. Right now, dear readers, I’m on a journey of self-reflection. I’m thankful for all of those people that have stuck it out with me for so long. I have learned a lot from all of you and I hope that some of you have maybe learned something from me, or at the very least, have been entertained by some of my stories.

This blog was a part of me.

Was.

I have moved on with my writing. I still write every day and have realized that as of today, I want to bid farewell to this blog and start something fresh and new. I’m very proud of this blog, because it was there when I needed something to reflect on, when I needed help with a certain topic or issue, or when I needed to find some sort of outlet to express myself. However, it became less and less fun and to be honest, I lost my passion for writing and had a dry spell for a few months, because of some of the things that happened in my life, like the separation of certain best friends, the death of my sister, and my encounters with depression due to several aspects of my life falling apart. However, I’m trying my best this summer to get over a lot and spending this time for self-reflection. I’m losing some weight because I’ve gained 30lbs, since a few months ago and my life wasn’t going in the direction that I wanted it to go. Now, I’m taking this bull named Life, by the horns, and riding it toward a direction that I want to.

I’m exploring religion a lot more, especially since the death of Francesca. I’m looking into Taoism a lot, a little bit of Buddhism, and am planning on reading the Bible straight through. I’m not hoping to finish any of these studies by the summer, because I hope to remain a student of life forever, which is why I named this the Student Writer’s Mind.

Besides religion, spoken word poetry has become a new venue for me to express things to people without any worry of people not understanding.  This idea that I can express everything to an audience and that there will always be someone snapping or humming to my words, knowing what I’ve been through has always been reassuring to me. You can always search my name on Youtube. All you have to type in the search bar is: Uncultivated Rabbits Stitch. I hope to hear comments from you, whenever I can.

As for this blog, I don’t know if I’ll come back to it or not. Time will tell. As for now, I need to do some traveling and adventuring in familiar places and some places unknown. I will be at the crossroads of Anywhere, Somewhere, Nowhere, and Life. I ask only for your support and your constant kindness, which you have always given me and that I’m thankful for. I care for all of you and all your stories, would love to read them, and hear all your inspiring words and more. If you ever want to reach me, my email is vyousefi@uci.edu. Thank you for always being there. 

Write on.

Sincerely,
Vatche "Stitch" Yousefian



Saturday, January 21, 2012

Dear God and Francesca: A Spoken Word

This piece explains one of the biggest things to happen to my life in the past few months. Her name was Francesca Garcia. She was my best friend and my "little sister." Everyone was blessed to know her. Please, watch and remember.



(Facebook photos and also the video taken belong to their original owners.)

Saturday, January 14, 2012

The Catch Up


The first week of school went by as fast as you can say, “Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious.” Slowly and gruelingly, work has become a repetitive thing and I don’t know how much longer I can stand people being amazed by the bursting boba.

“Oh my god, are those fish eggs?”

“Excuse me, what are those?”

“Oh, look its caviar.”

Over the summer it was the sweet, red beans that surprised people. I’m slowly losing my sanity. The only people that used to keep me entertained were my co-workers, but now they’ve all moved on or quit. I’m moving up the ladder and becoming a shift leader soon, but I have to show that I’m worth it. It has been difficult for me to maintain a job at night, while being in school in the morning and afternoon.

School.

I’m still trying to get into one of my classes. Due to recent budget cuts, there are over 450 students in a 399 person lecture hall. It’s a shame to see a good school like a University of California have to go through budget cuts. I told the teacher that I will sit in, write notes and take my exam on the floor if it means getting into this classroom. The teacher is funny and always makes sure that his students are paying attention in his class. It’s worth it, even if I have to sit on the floor.

I’m also taking my first creative writing class for the quarter. So far, I’m just reading a few short stories and a book on writing, but near the middle of the quarter is when the creative writing part starts. I’m excited!

Besides that, the other interesting class I’m attending is poetry. Truth be told, I never liked poetry when I wanted to venture into a writing career. I liked characters, stories, adventures, etc. Poetry was too short for my attention span and was just an ounce of feeling compared to the immense connection to the characters that I read about. However, since Rabbits, I’ve learned that poetry is more than any of that. It is life embodied. I told my poetry discussion leader that I was involved with Rabbits and spoken word poetry, which led us to a discussion of his outreach project. He is having this project where he is outreaching to high schools, mostly junior high school students, and holds workshops for them. I thought it was interesting and he said that he didn’t have much experience with spoken word, so he wanted to recruit me if I wasn’t too busy. I told him to sign me up at the end of class. Despite my busy schedule, I want to show poetry to these little kids at an earlier age than when I discovered its true meaning.

As for my fraternity, we’ve been running events all throughout RUSH week. For those of you know who don’t know the fraternity jargon, RUSH week is when a fraternity holds a bunch of events that invite people who might be interested in the fraternity for free, so they can interact with all our members and decide if they want to pledge. We had a big number of sign-ups, but we only ended up taking a group of nine. Nine. I feel like that number is a strong group for the new family that’s going to be born. They will be strong, I can feel it.

Here are some out of the ordinary things that I did this week that weren’t part of my schedule: sent a package to Japan, stayed up finishing an application for RA with my best friend/roommate, partied hard, started an inspiration wall in my room, finished a journal, performed for Uncultivated Rabbits’ First Open Mic of 2012 and Delta Sigma's Culture Cafe, and went to Santa Ana and Pomona.

I’ve also started a side-project of mine that is sort of like journaling, because of a quote that I found recently.

“Buy a blank notebook. Draw a huge heart on the cover. Don’t write anything negative in here. If you need another outlet, make a separate notebook. This one is all about love, personal growth, and getting back up. Fill it with beautiful images, reaffirming thoughts, and quotes. Write in it every day, and each day writing one thing you’re grateful for in your life.” ~ Kim: Advice from a Mermaid in a Manhole

So, I did just that. I’m writing down all the things I’m grateful for and I might share a few here on this blog when I get the chance. I’m also going to try and take some pictures, when I can of my life, because I want to keep some memories here and show you some of the things a student writer such as myself lives. Beautiful, ugly, mundane, special, exciting, and dull. All will be posted.

Lastly, I know that I haven’t been posting things this past week, but it’s been a hell of a juggle. However, I still love all of you readers, because you’re my friends and not only followers. I open up to you and I want to hear how you are all doing, as well. I would love a comment or two about how your weeks are all going.






(All photos came from my facebook and belong to their respective photographers.)




  

Monday, January 2, 2012

Monsters Like Us: Spoken Word

Here's a performance I did at an Uncultivated Rabbits open-mic back in October for Halloween. Hope you guys all enjoy! Let me know if I can work on anything! :D

Youtube URL: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uiCQBE8twCE